So it’s been over a week since I came back from Spring break in Miami. I had the time of my life there and got a taste of how I want to live after college - high rise apartments overlooking the city, warm weather, partying on the beach, etc. Who doesn’t want that?
Well, I loved it so much that I’ve had a very hard time re-adjusting to being back at school. I haven’t been to a single class since then, neglecting my homework, sulking during the day and drinking with my friends at night. I think this is depression? That’s a real thing, right?
With every class or assignment I miss, I grow more and more overwhelmed, and I understand my responsibilities. But I just haven’t been able to bring myself to wake up and start a productive day. I’d rather stay in my dreams where that stress is nonexistent.
Essentially, I’m acting like a fucking child. I need to reassess my priorities, because right now it’s graduating college so I can finally start getting serious about my music career. Majoring in engineering seems completely irrelevant to me now, but who knows maybe it’ll help me take my music business in a direction no one’s ever seen before.
I don’t have enough time to do everything that’s asked of me, and I have a hard time turning people down. That’s why I’m so overwhelmed. I’ve been doing this for three years though and it’s taken me places I’d never imagined possible. I’m grateful for everything and everyone in my life, and I need to keep moving forward if I ever want to make my dreams a reality.
These are the thoughts I’ve been plagued with lately, so if I’ve seemed out of it, this is why, and I just wanted to share.